Most of the past two years, I have been getting ill a lot. I don't know if it is because of my terrible allergies, or if I just have bad luck. Whatever it is, I feel like it has really taken away from my life. On most days, I don't feel like my normal self, but I get through it. The one thing that I have learned in the past couple of years is that a lot of hard work can truly pay off. Because I work on the weekends, I am going to get to go to London to study abroad. Because I am committed to my artwork, I have had the opportunity to become a leader in the Art Department. Because I have really worked on becoming a good friend, I have gained a lot of friends in return. Although I have had a lot of challenges, my life has been extremely fruitful. I know that I am more prepared than most to face the world after college than most people I know.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Musing on Your Experience
If I were to make a time capsule of my life at this very moment, I would focus on my experiences in the physical and emotional worlds. Right now, I feel alone. Alone not only because no one is here, but because I know no one is exactly like me. Most people are home with their families enjoying the presence of those who claim to know them most, but I have stayed in my apartment to wait for the work weekend to start. I also feel alone in my art making. I am trying to transfer my feelings of racial ambiguity into some form of tangible art, but no one seems to see a clear translation. I hope that I work this problem out by the time I graduate in the Spring. I know people say that this is a common disposition of many young artists, but it is so hard to believe it will go away.
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any state of inbetweenness can be difficult to express or translate...but at Elon it seems racial ambiguity becomes even more difficult, with the campus aesthetic radiating homogeneity, as well as the student population (largely anyway). many artists explore these issues their whole lives, and that's ok. have you looked at kara walker, carrie mae weems, yinka shonibare, fred wilson, people like that? sometimes deconstructing others approaches is helpful. and sometimes the translation into object is what comes up short. i think you have a gift for performance, emphemeral symbolic gestures and installation...perhaps that avenue might yield more satisfaction in terms of your ideas?
ReplyDeletesometimes frequent illnesses are significant of imbalance. perhaps as you figure things out about ambiguities you feel, and balance begins to form, your health will improve too. you take on a lot! i'm so happy you get to go to London! you deserve it! take care of yourself over break.